Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Classes have started
Last night was the first night for the new term at the University of Redlands, Graduate School of Education. I am starting the second term of classes for my Masters in Counseling, PPS and Administrative credentials. It doesn't look so bad so far, but I already miss being with the girls at night. I wish I would have had the foresight to have finished this up earlier like Debbie kept telling me to do, but that's water beneath the bridge. Classes here at work are fine, and I believe that I am off to a good year. I have some very nice students. I can't say that I am very motivated to stay teaching in the classroom much longer though. It's lost it's magic for me. The kids are all that I enjoy about work anymore. I'd even have to say that my daughters, Izzy and Amber are all I enjoy at home. Well except some time alone with my dogs, Coco and Candy. Hopefully I can get a handle on some things that are bothering me, and get back to being alittle more happy, or at least excited about life. My parents aren't doing so well health wise, and I think it really weighs heavily on my mind most of the time. It just doesn't look good for the future for either one of them, and I don't know what I'll do without their constant support in my life. It's something that I always knew I could rely on whens things went bad, or I needed some advice. I've lost my temper a few times in the last couple weeks and haven't been really myself. The results of those outbursts are going to cost me alot, and I regret have allowed myself to get that angry, but again it's water beneath the bridge. I have to work at not allowing myself to get angry again. I do feel quite alone most of the time lately. With the girls I just can't get out much and I seem to be isolating myself in the house. I've also been loosing alot of weight these last few weeks, almost 15 pounds which is alot for me. I just don't feel like eating. I usually throw away most of my lunch, and have not been eating anything for breakfast. I guess I really need to start forcing myself to eat all my meals. I'm sure all of this will pass and I'll be okay. I've come out of things like this before.