Tonight

Driving home from Marla's tonight from my Kiwanis meeting, I was reminded about how Southern California used to feel. It wasn't so much how it looked, but just a feeling. With all the new construction, homes and people out here it sure doesn't feel like home most days. I grew up in the small town of Sunnymead, now Moreno Valley. It was a pretty small place. I remember sitting on an overpass looking down at the #60 freeway and waving to people. Riding my bike and running in the Orange groves. It's all gone now, nothing really remains of Sunnymead or the Southern California that I grew up in. The weather is still the same, alot of things are still the same, yet it's just not right, different. When I got home, I walked over to a friends to visit. We joked around for awhile, but I just felt like going for along walk. No where in particular just to walk and remember how it used to be. How I was so innocent to things in general. It's different for me now. It's like I know too much to go back. I've thought about moving away, but would it really be that much different some place else. I don't really know. What do you think? Can we regain some of our past and how.

Tough Day at work.

I'm feeling like I need some excitement. I'm getting bored lately nothing seems to interest me. Just chilling out with Izzy is cool, but I feel wild inside like a trip some place would be cool. Maybe too much time being single is still inside me. That's stupid. Does anyone else get the urge to go out and get crazy. They've always talked about Middle Aged Crazy. I hope it's not something stupid like that. That's a waste of my time and a pain in the ass.
Izzy went to Daycare again today and had a better day. There is this little girl that grabs her toys from her and knocks her down. Her name is Janelle. Izzy is cool with it and hasn't kicked her ass yet. It's actually better that she doesn't. Izzy packs a mean smack and knows how to use it. She came home and we played for awhile and I really like that.
Debbie is mulling over an offer from her current employer to keep her to stay. I think she ought too just tell them to get lost and go work for ESRI. I've heard nothing but good things about ESRI and everyone I know that works there is very happy.

It just seems so busy

My days are so busy it seems like I never get a chance to unwind, and the furthest thing from my mind is blogging. Izzy is doing great. When I look at her in the morning, before she wakes-up, it's just amazing to me that I have a daughter. She is such a little baby and so beautiful. I bet all parents feel that way. I've been told that there are no ugly babies. I really have to disagree. Some kids are just funny looking. I'm not sure that I would go so far to say that they are ugly, but they sure don't look good. I belong to Minti (a parenting social network) and I wonder if any parents think their baby is "funny" looking. Time will tell if Izzy turns out to be a good looking kid. But regardless, she'll always be my beautiful baby. She sure is taking a lot from me. She's loud as heck, loves to jabber and wave her arms around. I really like that. I actually encourage her to be loud and active. She's thinking and doing something, that's good. She had to go to Daycare today for the first time. It really bothered me that I had to do that to her. I wish I made more money as a teacher, but it's just not the case. Debbie has to work and Izzy has to go to a licensed daycare until she is fully adopted and it is final. Then we have a wonderful friend that is going to watch her. Britty is sick today and although she doesn't feel well, I know she likes her Mom's attention. I have to get ready for bed, I have an Optimist club meeting in the morning before work.

A long day

I slept in for once, by mistake. I didn't wake-up until 5:45 AM. That's late for me. I forgot to turn-on the alarm for 5:00 AM. I managed to get out of the house on time. More and more meetings today. It's a joke that the administration thinks we listen. I just sit and play on my smartphone.

My little baby and why I volunteer.

I came home today and Izzy just went crazy. She loves her daddy. She smiles and yells for me. It's everything that I had hoped for. She's a wonderful baby.

I've been thinking about how I always feel like I need to pay back everyone for what I've been given. I'm involved in alot of community organizations and church. I wonder if anyone else feels so grateful that they always have the desire to payback?

Amazon.com: No One Cares What You Had for Lunch: 100 Ideas for Your Blog: Books: Margaret Mason

Amazon.com: No One Cares What You Had for Lunch: 100 Ideas for Your Blog: Books: Margaret Mason
A link to the new book to help me with getting back into Blogging.

I'll try again!

I think I'm going to start blogging again. I've bought a book today at Barnes and Noble that will hopefully give me some ideas about what to write about.

Izzy Carignan September 26th 2006

Izzy Carignan September 26th 2006
Originally uploaded by carignan.

Izzy and Debbie

Lack of Posting!

I can't say I've even cared much to post much lately. Apathy is the reason that comes up in my head the quickest. I've been blogging for a few years now and I just don't care much about it any longer. My content sucks and what I thought was going to be fun has just died. I'm undecided if I'll continue. I have to think about it. My neighborhood site that I started died on the vine for a lack of participation by anyone other then myself. Alot of people signed up, but no one really made an effort at trying to build our community online. I tried for about a year and then gave up. Maybe it's time for me to move on also. I'm tired and going to sleep.

Orchard Fire Cherry Valley CA September 19th 2006

Orchard Fire Cherry Valley CA September 19th 2006
Originally uploaded by carignan.

CDF Water Drop Helo @ Oak Valley Golf Course.

Schneier on Security

Schneier on Security Great site with interesting imformation for a guy that knows his stuff.

Linux on a Mac

Linux on a Mac
Originally uploaded by carignan.

Just my lastest box called BusyIzzy. Xubuntu Linux on an old iMac G3 400 with 512 RAM.

The Holiday Weekend

Nothing fun for me just work and a BBQ.