Expressing myself

Sometimes I write down things that don't really express what I'm thinking about deep down inside. I don't really have many people I can can talk to about what is on my mind. I can talk to my father. He told me he used to worry alot about me when I was younger. Things where very tough for me for alongtime. I was trying to be someone that I really wasn't. I still try to be that person sometimes. It's a hard habbit to break. My past wasn't for me. I think I was always trying to prove something about myself. I'd like to free from my past and just be true to myself. I guess that's what I want to do this New Year.